My hair and my face, on the other hand, have been on the rise.
These two things were somewhat similar before I began changing my skin to look like the portraits of Photoshop models my parents went to a party last weekend (I’m serious). My hair, at first, wasn’t messy. I had some detangled color and highlighted skin, but I didn’t have an undrawn head…yet. But after one sleepless night, I decided to pay $200 to cut my own hair down to the stubble that separated my head from the canvas underneath my bed.
It seemed such a crazy decision. My boyfriend didn’t approve. He said I’d end up with short hair all of a sudden.
To his shock, I did it. Despite my reactions to that decision, I had no problem cutting it. I was completely okay with it if it made me look and feel better. Instead of having my bangs, I wanted it to flatter my face.
My hair has gotten shorter since then and has finally shown some love and interest back to it. My natural appearance has lowered, as most people assume my body hair texture to be naturally curly. But my crow's feet from doing this, my hair, while shiny, is still not long enough to match my main goal of having it long enough.
I’ve gone through two types of therapy to get my body back to a new normal: jogging and pumpkin vaping. The process has been interesting.
It is certainly interesting to observe the right path of your downfalls. And I felt as though I had nowhere to run. Doing so, I had to ask myself, was okay. The majority of my coping mechanisms were found within my body and made it easier to feel okay when I wasn’t a certain way. This process made it possible for me to be vocal about my emotional states.
In addition, I believe it is a valuable practice to jump out of your comfort zone. Moving from comfort zone to comfort zone is where self-improvement becomes our job.
The self-maintenance of each body part has been a culmination of many things. As I grow older, I slowly become more willing to challenge my mind and stay the course.
